Contentment

So often we have prayed for patience, strength and faith through this time, but tonight Andrew prayed something totally different, something I hadn't expected at all.

He prayed for contentment.

I heard it come out and thought, "No God, that's not what he means.  Not that, anything but contentment." 

 I listened as he continued and finished his prayer.

I'm the kind of person that needs to know: when, why, how, what color, what time... etc, (the kid in the backseat asking "WHY?" over and over again) so naturally I needed to clarify.

When he got done I said, 

"You prayed for contentment...??" I noticed his eyes a little red. 

"Yes, I did."

"The kind of contentment to be okay with never having another baby?"

"Yes... It was the hardest thing I've ever prayed for."

In all this time.  In all my prayers.  I've never thought (and honestly never wanted) to pray for contentment.
But why not?
God has so richly blessed us with our sweet Hadley.

I mean I've definitely thought of the possibility, just never prayed to be okay with it, to be content.  This is why God put the two of us together.  God knew I would never be able to do this on my own and He definitely knew I would never pray this for myself.

I'm not saying we're done (ha). I'm merely saying that Andrew's prayer tonight has put something in/on my heart.  God has definitely spoke to me through Andrew tonight.

While posting, this verse popped in my head...

Numbers 6:24-26 (NIV)

The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you;  the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.